The next day at school was horrible. Last night he fell asleep crying, not doing anything on tumblr, as it might have made his mood even worse.
He was sitting in the classroom, lost in thoughts and with a gloomy gaze. The first three lessons were over already, but even though his body was present, his mind was somewhere else. He looked at the clock. Seven minutes until the end of the lesson. Following the watch hands with his eyes, the minutes became seconds and finally the lesson was over. He went out of the classroom, not as fast as on all the other days, and realised it was break time. Going to the big hall as usual, he sat down on a bench, putting his headphones into his ears but then stopped the music after a little while as listening to the boys made him even more sad. He took his bottle but as soon as he removed the lid, he put it on again. He wasn’t thirsty. Actually, he didn’t know what he was, or to be precise, he didn’t know what he felt like. Sadness, anger, desperation.. Must be a mixture of feelings. He barely heard the noises of the people in the hall and the empty plates that got stapled harshly on the little trolleys. That’s why he didn’t hear his friend’s voice till she called his name for the third time. Fabi looked up, facing Charlet. “Hey”, he mumbled, trying to smile, though it probably didn’t look very convincing. “What’s wrong?”, she asked, obviously worried. But before he could answer, the bell rang, announcing the next lesson. Relieved he stood up, murmuring a ‘See you later’ and turned around, going into the direction of the classroom. As he sat down at the back, he got out a piece of paper and his pencil case. And that’s what he did for the last two lessons. Lost in thought he scribbled one sheet and then another. Time went by and finally school was over. At least for that day.
On the way to the bus it started snowing, quite early thus year. The little snowflakes landed on his coat, resting there until they melted caused by the warmth of his body. Nevertheless it was really cold, so he pulled the collar up to cover his neck. Luckily it didn’t take long for the bus to come, and the warm inside was pleasant and cosy. He stared out of the window, again not noticing anything, but looking at the different shapes of the snowflakes which landed on the window. And then he watched them melting and followed the little drops of water running down the window. Ultimately he got home, being alone as usual, and as always he directly went upstairs, sitting down on his bed whilst getting rid of his coat. He switched on his laptop, and while it was loading he quickly went downstairs to make himself a cup of tea. Coming into his room again, he opened the window, as he realised how stale the air was. He sat down and opened a few tabs. First thing he did, of course, was going on tumblr. He couldn’t hold back a little smile as he saw that he got some new followers and also another fan message. Minutes turned into hours and it got dark outside already, but he was alright with being alone in his room with nothing but his laptop and a cup of tea. He received a message from his mum, apologizing that she won’t be able to manage to come home for dinner and that he’d have to eat alone tonight. But since he wasn’t really hungry today, he relinquished. He knew it must have been late again already, as time always seems to run away when he was on tumblr. He risked a gaze on the clock in the corner of the screen. Surprisingly it wasn’t that late as he detected. However, he was pretty tired, and what was even worse, he had an exam tomorrow. He didn’t revise for it, no, he was busy doing other things. He had fans he had to care about and five boys he had to support. Especially the one of them..
Fabi got changed and after going to the bathroom, he got comfortable in his bed, under the duvet. The only problem was that he forgot to turn the light off. So he got up again, switched off the light and then again got comfortable. He closed his eyes, lying on the side and imagined having Harry next to him. Harry, the boy he loved and who was coming near to where he lived soon. After all Fabi got the chance to meet him, but he would miss it..